Postponed Apocalypse: A Lookback at 2012

First up, let me congratulate all of us for surviving the end of the world! Yipee! No, seriously, we should be thankful.

Okay. So it's that time of year again when all I can think about is fast-forwarding the days so I can start anew. I've always believed that New Year isn't just celebrated because it's a tradition that has to keep going. For me, New Year symbolizes new beginning -- the opportunity to be on track again despite all the bad things, wrong decisions or problems you've had from the past year. It's like starting all over again from a clean slate trying to apply all the lessons you've learned from all your experiences from the previous year.  

If I am to describe my 2012, I'd probably say that it wasn't the best year but not even the worst, though. Yeah, I am (still) broke, jobless and drifted but I didn't struggle that much to live a day of my life. I mean, thanks to my family who's always been so supportive of me. And while most people would think that it's fun being a total bum, it's not! Spending most of your time doing nothing but thinking about how a day will go is sooooo boring! I did try looking for jobs out there but I guess I'm just too OC that I want my next job to be perfect just like my previous one. It's like I'm looking for the love of my life and without that "spark" I'm looking for, it will never work out.  And so later on, I got tired of searching and just stick to me and my siblings' "master plan" (which, by the way, is a secret! LOL). Luckily, I got the Internet, TV, and a few events with friends and family that got me busy with and kept me sane while waiting for 2013. Haha! 

Basically, 2012 was my year for reflection. This year, I got to realize a lot of things about myself and life. One of the most important things that I've realized is that I AM BLESSED. When we're down, we tend to see everything negatively that we forget to count our blessings. I think it's just natural to be depressed for a certain period but things won't change if you'll continue to be like that, right? We all go through tough times. I'm just so proud of myself because I have developed this attitude to not dwell on the negative side of things but instead acknowledge the blessings that God had and has been showering me for the last 27 years. He may have led me to a blurry path for now but I know that this is all part of His plan. Prayers are the best way to deal with all the worries you have and just bear in mind that the situation where you are right now is just a phase. It will pass eventually. I am just so thankful for the gift of health, love and harmony in the family and that we were not affected by all the major catastrophes that happened in the country.

Another major blessing this year was the birth of an angel we call Gian, my first nephew. And I am just so glad that I was there when he was born. He's turning two months in a few weeks and the excitement to see him grow up is always there. He's one of the reasons why I so want to get back to work again and earn so I can buy him stuff and spoil him with things that he would probably want. Haha! I love him!

Anyway, I also turned 27 this year and at my age, I really should be investing and saving for the future. My priorities shifted from "earning for pleasure" to "earning for the future" and I hope that this won't change even when I'm already busy with my next job. Dang! I wish that's soon! 

This year also, I had to refrain from dieting and going to the gym for a while since my mom isn't happy with my thinness anymore. Just when I'm about to have abs already! Kidding! Haha! But, yeah, I'm trying to gain a few pounds right now so I that I can start a new and more effective workout program maybe mid next year when I'm already settled (hopefully) with my new job.

On my love life, well, my relationships with music and TV and the Internet are okay so I guess I'm good. Haha! Crap! 

Alright. I guess that's about it for my 2012 and I am already sleepy. I didn't even plan on blogging tonight but I'm glad I did because it felt really good. :)  

Happy New Year!  2013 will be fantastic and I am claiming it!

Welcoming 2012!

Happy New Year!

Wow! It has been another chaotic year and I can't believe I survived it. Yes, 2011 sure did give me some of the biggest lessons in life. The previous year also gave me the biggest issues that I never thought I'd be able to deal with. But through it all, I am still grateful and thankful to God for all the blessings He has showered me.

So what's this post all about? Hmm... well, let's just say that I'm in the process of re-awakening the sleeping "storyteller" in me. Haha! It's been a while since I last felt that itch to say what's inside my head. I don't know. Maybe I was just preoccupied during the latter part of last year that blogging didn't fit in my schedule anymore. And yes, I had to deal with a lot of personal issues last year and some of them were depressing, so depressing I literally had to drag myself up in the morning just to go on with my daily routine. I never thought I would be in that situation again. Whew!

Okay. For now, I would just like to list the Top 3 highlights of my 2011 -- be it good or bad, happy or sad, whatever! Haha! I am so in the mood to write after eating so much during Media Noche.

And here goes:

Number 3: My Brother's Wedding

It was December 21 when my second elder brother and his fiancee decided to get married. I'm not really a fan of weddings and it was my first time to ever participate in one but it became so memorable. Well, maybe because it involved the entire clan and it was amazing to see your brother leap his way to another chapter in his life. Also, it kind of made me think about my future.

I also realized that change is really inevitable. In a snap, we're already grown ups. Gone are the days of playing around and doing childish stuff.

No matter how tight you want to hold on to the present, there really will come a time when you will have to make decisions on your own and marriage is just an example.

Number 2: Career Issues

2011 gave its hardest blow on my career last month when our office got "shaken up". Everything started when our President announced his early retirement and that we are having a reorganization. Next thing we know, some of our coworkers are already being retrenched. Well, it was a long story and it was the biggest surprise to all of us last year but that event made me think about what I really want to achieve and where I really want to be in the next five years. Eventually, the option to go abroad to earn and save faster popped up.

To date, things are still unstable. But things will soon fall to places when I get back to the office to file my resignation. Yes, I am resigning to try my luck in Singapore this year. I know I'll be leaving a life here in the Philippines but I know I must do this.

I also know that part of that life I will leave behind is the friendship that me and my coworkers have built. I know it's sad but I guess that's just how life is -- unpredictable!

Number 1: Heart Issues!

Did I just say heart issues?! Hahaha! Believe it or not, yes! Heart issues made up most of my 2011. And no one ever knew about that aside from my closest friends. Haha! I won't get to the details of that because I don't want to bore anyone. Haha! And besides, I've already recovered. It's been six months. Let's just say that I have learned that love exists. You feel it when it strikes you and you really get crazy when you're in love. Good thing I was able to get back to reality and realize that I am loving the wrong person. Now, I know better.

Okay. So that basically summed up my 2011. I'm sleepy and it's already 4 in the morning. I hope to write more this year and I hope that this year will be my year.

Here's to lifelong happiness and prosperity! Cheers!